Sunday, March 18, 2012

Scary Thoughts

Now I don't often get very serious here in my blog.  I figure this is a place to come and tell everyone about my successes and sometimes my failures.  I like writing about things I like or that make me happy.  But I've had some rather disturbing, okay to me it's downright scary, news.  I've been being treated for glaucoma for about 10 years now.  My pressure has always been somewhat higher than it should be but it's been manageable.  But for the last couple of years, no matter what drops I've used, the pressure has been much higher than usual.  So it was recommended that I see a specialist in glaucoma and begin treatment with her.  Well, apparently the vision in my left eye has deteriorated more rapidly that we anticipated and the "easy" laser surgery is no longer an option.  Now I'm looking at a canaloplasty  which isn't quite as hard as the remaining surgery but certainly not as easy as simply cutting a few holes in the back of my eyeball with a laser.  Now we're not just looking at controlling the glaucoma, we're looking at preserving what's left of my vision in that eye.  I've always had bad eyesight so I've never taken my sight for granted but the idea of losing my sight even partially scares me.  Now I can still do everything that I could before I got this news.  I'm not restricted at all although sometimes I do have a blurry area that I have to contend with.  But the idea that there may come a time when I can't drive or read or knit or stitch bothers me.  So I know God has everything in control and I'm sure there's something He wants me to learn from this but it's still very scary to me.

7 comments:

Catherine said...

Thoughts and prayers headed your way...

Sharon said...

I quite understand as my eye pressures have always been up and down myself. In fact going back for a recheck on the 29th... Praying things will go well with the specialist for you. Keep us posted!

Jeanne said...

I wish you the very best and hope they can do their utmost for your sight. All my life I've been an extensive reader and crafter so like you, have never taken my eyesight for granted. Sending positive thoughts your way!

Cathy Pavlovich said...

I'm so sorry to hear this. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Cathy

Nancy said...

I understand that this is scary for you. Another option you could check into is acupuncture. I worked with one in Albuquerque that would get great results and she became a specialist in glaucoma issues. It might be an option to try before the surgery. You are in my thoughts!!

GoldenAngelsWorks said...

Prayers that God has your eyesight in his will to be in tact.

Just know prayers are there for your eyesight.

Dani - tkdchick said...

Bette!!! That's awful! I hope the specialist can do great things for you.

A friend of mine who stitches she has poor vision has had to do all kinds of drops surgeries, etc. She got a special magnifier lamp from the Canadian Institute for the Blind if there is an American equivalent you may be able to persue this to help you with reading and crafting.